Difficulty.

I started this blog long ago and I connected my Facebook account to it but I think it stopped me from posting. Maybe I felt I wouldn’t be able to be open. Maybe I became lazy. Maybe. Today I disconnected my Facebook and so we shall see where this leads.

In my last post I admitted that I was anxious. I have extreme anxiety that some days I feel so trapped and can barely breathe. I feel as though I am not cut out to be a mother. It is hard for me to parent effectively and productively. I love my children. I love my children. I just wish this anxiety and deep fear of failure would leave me. I want to be the best mother. I want to be more than what I am and I am working on it.

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